This is not one of my sarcastic posts, so if that’s what you came for, you may want to move on. Also, please excuse grammatical errors. This post is heart-driven.
I’ve been thinking about pain a lot lately. As someone who suffers from chronic migraines, it frequently passes my mind. Friends who know me well, know that I am religious. I’m not the perfect example (sometimes I wonder if I’m even a good example) but here we are. When I have questions about how things work, I research. Stop laughing. I never said I was a good example of being cool either. With pain on my mind, Easter coming, and my natural sense of curiosity, I wanted to learn more about crucifixion and Christ’s physical state before and during.
If you’ve read the Bible at all or know someone of Christian faith, you’re probably familiar with the events that led to Christ’s death. Here’s my disclaimer: I am not a scriptorian or any type of Christianity expert. Please take my interpretations and understandings for what they are – personal interpretations and understandings.
After a Passover meal, Christ gathered his disciples. He took them with him to a garden called Gethsemane where he intended to pray. While he prayed, alone, he sweat drops of blood. There is an actual medical condition called Hematohidrosis. Hematohidrosis is a very rare condition of sweating blood. It also is supposed to leave the skin extremely tender to the touch. At that physically low and hurting moment, he was betrayed and arrested.
He was marched to the governor, Pilate, and then marched to the king, Herod. According to what I’ve been able to find, that distance would be over two miles. But, it wasn’t a leisurely stroll. He would’ve been tired from not sleeping, body most likely aching, skin tender, all the while being mocked, spit on, hit by stray rocks and goodness knows what else the mobs decided to throw at him. Sinking even physically and emotionally lower, Herod sentenced him to die by crucifixion.
Christ was then subjected to further humiliation and physical torment. He was tasked with carrying his own cross after he’d been flogged by leather whips that had sheep bone embedded in the strips to make more damage. Roman guards then took a “crown” of thorns (Euphorbia milii) and pressed it to his head. Apparently, not only are the thorns painful but any sap that lingered would have caused more pain as the sap is poisonous thus causing his already sensitive skin to become even more irritated.
At this point, Christ would be in a great state of blood loss, possibly in shock. Could this have been something to help him endure? An odd sort of tender mercy? Soldiers threw a robe on him as a type of patch or glorified bandaid but later negated the robe’s usefulness after they ripped it from his skin causing his wounds to reopen and bleed again. At this point, Christ’s physical health would have been in a deathly critical state. Blood loss, weakness, and pain prevented him from carrying his cross the rest of the way so Simon of Cyrene helped him complete this task.
Did you know the word excruciating is derived from the word crucifixion? Excruciate: “to torture, torment, inflict very severe pain on,” as if by crucifying, 1560s, from Latin excruciatus, past participle of excruciare “to torture, torment, rack, plague;” figuratively “to afflict, harass, vex, torment,” from ex “out, out from; thoroughly” + cruciare “cause pain or anguish to,” literally “crucify,” from crux (genitive crucis) “a cross” (excruciate | Etymology). Crucifixion is said to be the most painful death ever invented by humans.
Christ would have been laid down on a cross on the ground, then hammered in place with 7-9 inch nails to hold him. Further torturing a sensitive, bleeding, dehydrated, emotionally drained, exhausted body. Once “secured”, the soldiers then lift him up and let gravity take its tortuous course. The nails in the wrists would have most likely severed a nerve which would have shot new waves of continual pain. Eventually, gravity and the body’s weight would’ve caused Christ to distribute his weight, eventually taking it to his chest: “He would immediately have trouble breathing as the weight caused the rib cage to lift up and force him into an almost perpetual state of inhalation” (Jha). He would not have been able to breathe in. Have you ever had the wind knocked out of you? So basically like that but so much worse.
Unfathomably, Christ was able to muster enough strength and breath to still plead for forgiveness for the unforgivable: “Father, forgive them; for they know not what they do” (Luke 23:34).
I’ve thought about this a lot – the theological and scientific aspects. Instead of science diminishing the power of the Easter story, it has done the opposite and made it more powerful. I think that we, at times, think “Oh, Jesus was super powerful so, of course, he could handle all of that.” But here’s the thing, he was still mortal. He still felt pain. God removed himself leaving Christ with the physical limitations we all share. He literally was just our brother trying his best to carry a load he knew we could not.
He hurt. He bled. He cried. He suffered. He did all of that willingly. And, in the end, with all the anguish and suffering of gasping breath he still pleaded for those who were hurting him, mocking him, abusing him, denying him. Even with the pain that I experience, with the trials and tragedies I’ve had to experience, I cannot, with my meager human understanding, comprehend his level of pain, of emotional anguish. But here’s the thing, I don’t really have to.
Because of Him, I have someone pleading on my behalf even when I’m stupid. Because of Him, when I am low and hurting, I have His strength. Because of Him, when I am in the darkness of pain, I have His healing. Because of him, when life’s sufferings are causing me to be in a perpetual state of inhalation, I can breathe. Because of him, when my soul is in the depths of anguish, I have his soul-comforting peace. When I am in the abyss of despair, tormented, hurting, and unable to carry the burden, He is there to lift me, to fortify me to be able to carry on knowing that I am not alone. Never alone. And that, beyond theology, beyond science, THAT is all I really need to know.
Works Cited
“Crown of thorns | Plant, Description, & Meaning.” Encyclopedia Britannica, 15 December 2017, https://www.britannica.com/plant/crown-of-thorns-plant. Accessed 8 April 2023.
“excruciate | Etymology, origin and meaning of excruciate by etymonline.” Online Etymology Dictionary, 3 May 2020, https://www.etymonline.com/word/excruciate. Accessed 8 April 2023.
Jerijani, H. R., et al. “HEMATOHIDROSIS – A RARE CLINICAL PHENOMENON – PMC.” NCBI, July-September 2009, https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC2810702/. Accessed 8 April 2023.
Jha, Alok. “How did crucifixion kill? | Science.” The Guardian, 8 April 2004, https://www.theguardian.com/science/2004/apr/08/thisweekssciencequestions. Accessed 8 April 2023.
“New Testament.” The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints, https://www.churchofjesuschrist.org/study/scriptures/nt?lang=eng. Accessed 8 April 2023.